So... I haven't posted in a while. In my defense, a LOT of things have been happening recently. First and foremost: Rob got a full-time position offer at an amazing job in Colorado......... so we're moving! I don't really know how to feel about this right now. I'm SO excited on one hand - back to my home state, my friends, my family, the mountains, the nature, all of the things I know (or at least knew). On the other hand, I have made a life for myself here - great friends, a career I love (that doesn't want me to leave), our very first OWNED home. I've spent much of the last few weeks alternating crying from happiness and sadness.
With all of this grand news, I have been kept super busy looking for a new job in Colorado and trying to get our house ready to go on the market. As of today, our house is for sale! Rob and I put a lot of work into cleaning, organizing, fixing, packing, and readying the house. Rob left for Colorado yesterday. This morning, the house had its first showing.
I've spent most of today crying. I am not crazy about strangers having full access to my house when I'm not home (I'm guess I'm still not recovered from the break-in), and I'm also upset that I really can't relax in my own home. I have to live in my house without really showing that I live in my house. I don't know. I guess the main thing that is causing my waterworks is the fact that Rob and I are having to sell our first home - the one we saved up for and worked so hard to get. And in this housing market, we probably won't make a single dime off of it. Rob says the new apartment in Lakewood is decent enough, but it's so hard to go from something you own - something that is truly yours - to sharing walls with noisy neighbors. Here I am feeling sorry for myself - what can I say, it's just been a super emotional last couple of weeks. We've already done a couple 'goodbyes', (though I will hopefully get to see those guys again - I'll still be here for a while finishing out the school year). I can't imagine saying goodbye to most of my friends here in KC. I know that it isn't going to be the last time I'll see them, but it hurts all the same.
The positive big picture I'm trying to keep in mind is that Colorado WILL be (it HAS to be!) the place where Rob and I really plant our roots and raise a family and make our own. Rob has never really had a place to call his "hometown", and I am happy to be back to my home state and begin that life stage with him. In the meantime, though, don't mind my puffy eyes and cry face, please.
Fingers crossed for a GREAT offer on our house and an AMAZING new job for me!
Kate Suarez: weepy, frazzled, and optimistic for an amazing future!
