I've officially been back in Colorado almost five weeks now. The newness of my return is swiftly running out, and I'm afraid I'm falling back into old habits of pre-move. I'm settled into the apartment, unpacked, and I've become an official Colorado resident. I've applied for a job, and I've sent in all of my materials for a Colorado teaching and substitute license. I'm now in the waiting game before I can apply to districts to sub.
So now my thoughts have began to wander and I'm constantly in search of something to do. I keep making mindless to-do lists, and while making lists and crossing items out is one of my favorite things to do, the lists keep getting more and more boring. Here is the one that I finished today:
1. Go to library and return dvds/books; pick up hold
2. Go to Petsmart for cat litter and food - bring coupon!
3. Recycle ink cartridges at OfficeMax - apply for rewards card!
4. Go to Comcast and exchange DVR
5. Buy a new dress for wedding
6. Buy wedding present
Sigh. Today I drove into Denver with my to-do list in hand, and got completely turned around - thanks a lot for running out of batteries, Garmin. Normally I would have really gotten frustrated and scared, but today I just thought "well, at least this will waste some time." Sad, huh? I'm so ready to get back into a routine. I desperately want a cool new job that I look forward to - really any sort of routine would be awesome.
One thing that is creeping into routine is my insomnia, though. I find myself worrying about the house constantly, and I just can't sleep. I just want it to sell. We keep dropping our price, and now that I'm so far away, I keep worrying that something is going to happen to the houes, and there's nothing I can do to about it. We're already losing a lot of money on it, and I'm thinking I never want to buy a house again! I worry that we're not going to be able to get out of this hole.
Ok. Enough. I know I started this blog as a way to stop feeling sorry for myself, but I'm not writing my worries about the house for sympathy. Sometimes it just feels better to write down my worries - much like my (sometimes beloved) to-do lists. I think now that I've gotten some of my worry out, I'll be able to get a little sleep. I have so many things to be thankful for. My family, my friends, my husband, my kitty, my health... the list goes on and on. I feel confident that this mess will be over soon. As "Annie" said... the sun'll come out tomorrow. And right now, tomorrow is already today - just a few more hours before the sunrise. I feel better already. :)
